It occurred to me this morning that I am someone’s orgasm.

All the gods have left because they no longer make sense.

But, there is light except in the back of the throat.

Drunk is easy to do

with its slow motion notions

(I’m afloat on a lagoon of balloons.)

But, coming to isn’t like cumming

and more like an unwanted birth.

In the beginning there was flesh

a sketch at best.

But, I think it’s better to be a stone

or a dog in heat

than buried by a tyranny of memory.

To maintain buoyancy is all there is.


Much of who I am 

is tethered 



the feeling of meaning

the idea 


the feeling of meaning

and that 


the idea of what I assume

to be real.

This is how I form

the compartment

where I fabricate 

my identity

and explicit truths.

They can be a candle lit room

the tide

a magician's hat

the steam from a tea cup

my lover's clasp and breath

the bird's flicker of wing

rain on anything

the willow through the window

silver placed on the table

where I am the guest and the intruder. 

Very Little

To begin with

here's what I know:


Snow is wedged 

between pines. 

It will melt. 


Of course 

my behavior 

isn't geometric like lupine.

I mouth inconsistencies as I drag my torn kite. 


Fed up with the arithmetic of desire

I left the ring in a rill of sand. 


The bench sitting in front 

of this poem is bleached and peeling. 

Threats and laughter fell 

beneath its boards. 


Of course I'm haunted, 

aren't you? 



Make Believe

Our only cover is time

and the thin air of winter.

Become addicted to something 

especially the idea 

of who you are.

This is necessary make believe. 

Do we know the rose is a rose? 

That the frost on its hip

is the ash of burning angels?

Unlikely, is the answer

that quietly avoids our loss.

Our only cover is time

and from the garden we never left.

We only painted our eyes 

with the blood of our birth 

and wrapped our faces in cellophane. 

Pieces of a Prayer

I'm finally let out. How long?

8 years. Jesus...

Now what?  

They said I would find my way. 

I don't believe I know what I need because everything I thought I needed left and they were not a thing of need anyway, but an experience. So then I need experiences I think. But, I don't know if I know what I want to experience. Sex yes. Happiness, that's standard right? Understanding mostly. I like drugs, most drugs and coffee. But, I quit drugs and haven't found what I want since then. They said I would find my way, that it wouldn't be bottomless. That I wouldn't fall forever. I am still falling. 




Untitled and Its Accomplice

Its voice is the thrashing of a hundred and thirteen piranha

and what flesh you see me in is loosely stitched 

on the skeleton I borrow like an eczematous sack. 

And I didn't choose the number of fish or the routine

that begins at 3:44 in the morning

just before the time dreams are returned to their kennel

teeth rouge, lips dripping. 

After that we mostly paint in shades of pain:

ochre belting

that color she makes when forced into, 

the off lighted purple of days old bloating

the ridges of umber tissue shaped like antlers on our back. 

Later we relish our salt and wet down gristle 

with a gallon of hard cider, fire a cigarette

and match the buzz to the idea of anything else.